Destination unknown.
As the train slowly pulled away my heart seemed to grow a thousand times heavier, pounding right out my chest.Memories that once were so sweet burned and made me dizzy.My throat closed up making it harder to breathe as I found myself missing you already.
Firstly I want to say thank you. Thank you for the past two days, the five months before that, all the effort you made to make me feel special, for giving me hope and strength to power through a place that I would have otherwise given up but most of all for saving me from myself. You saved me in every way possible and showed me happiness that I didn’t know existed. Happiness and love that I never thought I was worth until you picked me off my knees and told me to be strong.
You are truly perfect. Through our ups and downs, highs and lows we always came out stronger so i thank you for putting up with me. I don’t know how life could be so cruel as to give you to me when I can’t keep you. I dont want to be a stop on the way I want to be the destination but as much as it kills to even think about perhaps there’s someone better for you out there.
Your smile is what I’ll miss the most, when I see you smile I feel like nothing and noone else could be more perfect, like nothing and noone else matters as long as I could keep on seeing you smile. I wish I had the strength to keep on writing and let out all the things that I wish I had more time to say to you but I can’t see through tear filled eyes. You told me to be strong but it’s hard. So hard. I’m sorry.
